Wednesday, November 15, 2006

New Family Gathering

Event: Dream on 15 Nov 2006
Updated: 29 Aug 2012

Below is from my original blog created in March 2005 initially as a venting for an unresolved conflict with a local Mormon Church leader. Its purpose has gradually expanded into a journal of events and for inner work, which includes memories, dreams and reflections. It also includes an invitation to others for comments.

Wednesday, November 15, 2006
Dream Yoga: New Family Gathering, Part 1
Date of interview: November 22, 2006

What are three fundamental life issues that you are dealing with now in your life?

Being authentic
Finding others who are or want to be authentic
Helping others be or become authentic

Tell a dream you remember...

New Family Gathering
Los Alamos
15 Nov 06

I am in the family room at home with wife Birgitta and other family members. Someone (Johnny? Barbara?) is performing quietly in the northwest music corner of the room (reminds me of Barbara’s music room in Provo). My brother Virgil has just come in the door at the southeast corner. Birgitta greets him with a welcoming hug.

Marianne is here in the room, standing around alone. She looks as she did 40 years ago. She talks to no one. No one else talks to her.

Outside in the gravel yard I see a haggard young mother walking towards the house from a nearby field with two small children (maybe ages 3 and 4) following. The children look mulatto, each having a full Afro head of grey hair. I go over to them to make contact and inquire about their welfare.

Why do you think that you had this dream?

I have been doing a lot of inner work recently such as: Dream Yoga (also called Integral Deep Listening) on old dreams with unresolved elements; reviewing and transcribing old (1991) unprocessed hypnotherapy sessions with William Baldwin and David Cheek; reaching out and finding old friends from long ago such as "Takeshi N" in Japan (an excommunicated stake president); engaging my children and other family members in dream work or inner dialogues; trying to tie up loose interior ends, ushering DFE and other unwanted and interfering entities into the Light, and generally getting better organized.

If it were playing at a theater, what name would be on the marquee?


These are the characters in the dream…

Family room, beautiful wall coverings, attractive carpets and furniture, myself, wife Birgitta, brother Virgil, Barbara? Johnny? Marianne, haggard mother, two mulatto children, gravel in driveway, distant fields.

If one character had something especially important to tell you, which would it be?

Family Room

Family Room, would you please tell me what you look like and what you are doing?

I am a large room, beautifully furnished with colorful Oriental carpets, fine wall hangings and portraits, sturdy well-made furniture, and grand piano.

What do you like most about yourself in this dream? What are your strengths?

I like the beauty and peace I enjoy and represent. My strengths are a welcoming atmosphere where people can gather together without discomfort or apprehension. I am also well made and strong.

What do you dislike most about yourself? Do you have weaknesses? What?

There is nothing I dislike about myself.

If you could change this dream in any way you wanted, would you? If so, how would you change it?

There is nothing to change. I have been waiting for this gathering for a long time. It is for this reason I was created.

If the dream were to continue, what would happen next?

Two main things: First, Eugene would bring in the haggard mother and her two children. They would be made to feel welcome, cherished and fed. Their future comfort and security would be looked after by any number of family members. Other children would be invited to make friends with the two young new-comers.

Second, Marianne would be well met and put at ease. Eugene would introduce her and have her speak. It is not clear what she would say, but most family members know who she is. Birgitta would take the lead in having her feel welcome, although it might be awkward at first. Eugene and Birgitta would be clear and firm in their interactions with her. Marianne would be invited to speak about her life and purpose and then encouraged to go into the Light.

Family Room, if you could be anywhere you wanted to be and take any form you desired, would you change? If so, how?

No changes desired. This is my purpose.

(You are in Eugene’s dream, correct? He created you, right?)

But of course.

Family Room, what aspect of this person do you represent or most closely personify?


How would you score yourself 0-10, in confidence, compassion, wisdom, acceptance, peace of mind, and witnessing?

Ten in all categories.

Family Room, if you scored tens in all six of these qualities, would you be different? If so, how?

Again. I have scored ten in all six categories.

How would Eugene’s life be different if he naturally scored high in all six of these qualities all the time?

Eugene would become a people person, taking inspiration on how to behave from his old friends Eugene England and John Howard.

If you could live Eugene’s waking life for him, how would you live it differently?

This is not my call. It seems to me that as his waking life parallels this dream and the extensions herein developed, he would feel his life has renewed meaning.

If you could live Eugene’s waking life for him today, would you handle his three life issues differently? If so, how?

Those issues are right on.

What three life issues would you focus on if you were in charge of his life?

These are the issues.

In what life situations would it be most beneficial for Eugene to imagine that he were you and act as you would?

Eugene would be well equipped to meet and interact with people of all kinds in his and Birgitta’s intention to form a Kosmos Salon in Los Alamos

[2012 Note: this has morphed into the Los Alamos Deep Democracy Open Forum, a non-profit corporation.]

Why do you think that you are in this dream?

To present to Eugene a way to resolve past tensions with Marianne and a new way to expand the family.

Eugene, what have you heard yourself say?

I have one important awkward relationship to reconcile with the family in a compassionate way.

If this dream were a wake-up call from your soul, what do you think it would be saying to you?

I think it is saying that hospitality and beloving skills are the most essential self-aspects needing to be developed in my life these days.

posted by Eugene @ 4:00 PM   1 comments

At 9:33 PM, December 06, 2006, Anonymous Joseph Dillard said...
JD: Notice the difference in this room from the Bedroom, above... [in May Day! May Day!]

EK: It is saying that hospitality and beloving skills are the most essential self-aspects needing to be developed in my life these days.

JD: This seems right on...

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