Sunday, November 22, 2009

Open letter to granddaughter Annie

Original post: 22 November 2009
Updated:23 November 2009

Click on image to enlarge



Dear Annie,

It is fascinating how truth can come to light in unexpected ways.

For example, In your last letter to me dated October 1, you stated you were "done" with your grandfather and summarily shut him out of your life. Surprised and shocked by this, I shared it Birgitta immediately. After reflecting, she wrote you for clarification and received a similar letter from you..

To give background to this astonishing development, you will recall that it was precipitated by concern for my friend, Priest John Hennies, depicted in the newspaper article above. In wondering how to help him most quickly, I thought of you, since the scam had originated in London and I had a newly married granddaughter living with her new English husband and family in or near London. I decided to appeal to you and your new relatives for help after contacting your mother for your latest address. (Am now having a deja vu about this!)

BTW, though you may not be interested to learn it, my above-mentioned priest friend managed to foil the scam artist so totally that neither he, nor any other person contacted by the would be perpetrator lost a penny. Providence provided.

Nevertheless, this tempest-in-a-tea-pot crisis brought to light a most interesting reality for your grandfather, once he began to understand the forces were at work on members of his family, whether active Mormons or not. The only defense that I know of that can prevail against such dark forces are those of Light, and that is the purpose of this open letter. Your old grandpa will not go down without trying to bring Light into a dark subject that has plagued our family for generations. That is what motives him. You may be done with him, but he is not done with you.

To refresh your memory, here is what I wrote on September 30

Dear Granddaughter!

Special timely request (may be too late by now, in any case).

Your mother tells me your father-in-law works in London. Can he or Scott or someone there check out the address below?

212 Cromwell Rd
London England
SW5-OSW


Here’s why. Our old priest, Fr. John Hennies, 79, has just been wiped out financially by a hacker who stole his email address book and then changed his password so that he can no longer access his records or warn his friends. The hacker asked for money to be sent to the address above. Some of Fr. John’s friends and family called him to ask about it and he was able to warn them. But many others all over the country (and other countries!) have already sent $$ without questioning the message. He is devastated and wants to reimburse everyone taken in by the scam. But that is impossible unless they contact him directly.

I thought there might be a chance to help him solve the case if someone could check out this address and get back to us.

Love, G’pa...


On October 1, you replied:

Hello again,

You obviously did not receive my previous email... I know this will come as a surprise to you, but please do not contact me again - for any reason (or pester my mother or other family members regarding this request). It is none of their concern - this is because I have grown weary over the years of the drama that surrounds you - the company you keep, your philosophies on life, the carbon copying, and your alarmingly clueless, yet blatant, for those who bare the brunt of it, lack of respect when it comes to communicating with family. I'm done.

Annie


On October 3, 2009, Birgitta wrote:
Dear Annie,

The other day, your grandfather rushed into the bedroom and loudly exclaimed “What a shock!” He said he had received a shocking e-mail from his favorite grand-daughter. He explained and later let me read your unbelievable msg. It was shocking to me too! What on earth got into you, Annie? Because of the very little communication that has occurred between you, it seems obvious to me that the words in your short message to him do not come from your own experience of your grandpa, but from words you have heard the adults around you say as you were growing up. He has always shared with me the letters from his family, sometimes with joy and sometimes with deep pain.

I dared marry your grandpa 16 years ago, after corresponding with him over a period of 17 years, partly because of his longing for reconciliation with all the members of his family. He had made that word his life motto, reconciliation being one of the most beautiful words in the English language to me. We all do the best we can in the circumstances we find ourselves with the knowledge we have. When we know better, we do better. Your grandpa may not have been the best father or grandpa in the past, because he didn’t know better, but I have observed first-hand how much thought and work has gone into his efforts to connect with all of you and to try to share with you all, from his innermost being the best he knew how. Life with your grandpa has not been the easiest at times, but in the 16 years we have had together, I have seen him grow in grace, love, patience and thoughtful caring, self-control and inner strength as well as in fFaith in God, things that the Scriptures call “Fruits of the Spirit”. He is always willing to forgive and is always willing to help anyone who asks him for help. I am not saying that he has no faults. One of them is that he is at times extremely impulsive and often naïve, which are child-like qualities and surprising when found in an adult and which sometimes give him trouble, like now in his impulsive act to ask you to help out in this scam on his friend the priest whom he respects so deeply and wanted to help in an emergency. His naivité is probably something that he will always have, but is that an unforgivable fault? Your grandpa Gene has a very active mind and lively intellect, and he is often brilliant, and he can come on too strong. He also has blind spots in practical down-to-earth matters? Are those unforgivable faults?

I am sorry, Annie, but I think that you have acted quite unlovingly and thoughtlessly. How could you reject and hurt your grandfather in this way? Why didn’t you just let him know that it was not convenient for you to go and check that address or too far, too risky, or whatever reason. I would have been ashamed if I had ever spoken to my elders that way, no matter their faults, and especially to a loving grand-parent. It is not a Christ-like reaction of a professing Christian. And, Annie, what do you know about “the company he keeps”, or his “philosophies on life”. You mention his “lack of respect”, but what about your own lack of respect? Christ said: “A new commandment I give to you, that you love one another; as I have loved you, that you also love one another. By this all will know that you are My disciples, if you have love for one another.” (John 13:34)

I am not holding you totally responsible for your attitude; we all have attitudes of one kind or another because of our upbringing and indoctrination, but we can all grow and mature through our experiences and willingness to understand ourselves and others. We all have baggage to get rid of on our journey in life, don’t you think?

On another note, congratulations on your marriage! We sent a little gift for you to Katya’s home. We are very sorry not to be able to come to you reception in Texas at the end of the month. But under the circumstances, you may not want to see us then anyway. Your harsh words to Zhenya does not change his love for you, nor my feelings for you. We’ll just leave the ball in your court.

With love and best wishes to you and your Scott,

Your step-grandma Birgitta


To which you replied the next day:




From: Annie Martin [mailto:annnra@gmail.com]
Sent: Sunday, October 04, 2009 3:44 AM
To: Birgitta Kovalenko
Subject: Re: A comment


Dear Birgitta,


I appreciate the time and emotion you put into your email. Thank you for the well-wishes on my marriage.


As for the effect of your email - I don't really know how to respond. I do not wish to be rebuked or have you cast shame upon me again.


I will say this: over the course of my life, I have seen my mother in tremendous pain because of her father's words and actions. This is not only because of the events of her childhood and being abandoned and neglected by the only father she had, it's things that have happened in recent years as well.


I would love to have had an idealistic grandchild-grandparent relationship as I've grown up, but I didn't. Your husband is the only living grandfather I have, but he feels like a stranger to me - he just hasn't been there... to watch me grow up, etc. A good relationship is built upon a foundation of trust and love, and sharing experiences together. ...And, I fear the time for that has past.


I wish both of you the best,


Annie


22 November 2009

Dear Annie, the time for developing true community, built on a foundation of trust and love and the sharing experiences is never past. [See: A Different Drum, by M. Scott Peck]. But now I know how you really feel! And that is progress! Your rejection of your grandpa is not a new experience for him, as you undoubtedly know. It wasn't for Jesus, either. But if you really believe in "true community" (as Peck defines it in A Different Drum and which Jesus taught), where all are accepted for who they are and feel free to tell the truth of what they think and feel (as you are doing now), then one day you and I will communicate again. I want to know the real you, Annie, not someone who postures and pretends. You may want to know her someday, too.

Until then,

Love, G'pa

Strangely enough, on 23 November 2009 I received this card from you sent from England on 18 Nov....


Dear Annie, in light of your letters of October 1 and 3, don't you think your note is disingenuous? You didn't have to send the card, so please don't pretend with us. If you want a relationship of any substance or authenticity with me, then put all your complaints on the table. Birgitta and I can handle them. Don't hold anything back, because I sense a lot of hostility in you. Let's empty it out so it can be transformed into something creative and meaningful.. But be sure your complaints are based on your own experience with your grandfather and not on hearsay. You mention watching your mother suffer. Tell me about what that has to do with me and be specific. Otherwise it is simply gossip. I want to see if my granddaughter has the courage of her convictions to continue to speak plainly.

In the meantime please consider how you come across in addressing me and others, in case your parents or church leaders or school teachers didn't teach you this. Even if you don't care, I prefer to be addressed by you as "Grandpa Gene", as you have done all your life and in your last note from England. However, on the envelope I would prefer "Dr." or "Mr." If you choose just "Eugene Kovalenko" or "Gene", that would signal disrespect. Your grandmother Ruth would always address me as "Dr. Eugene Kovalenko" in the HUGE amount of correspondence between us over decades. HOWEVER, when she was irritated with me she would typically leave off BOTH the title and my first name. Thus, whenever I saw just "E. N. Kovalenko" on an envelope from her, I could count on an unhappy message or complaint.

Do yourself and your husband and relatives over there a favor and read M. Scott Peck's The Different Drum about community as taught by Jesus.

Love, G'pa


Monday, November 16, 2009

Second Remote PK Experiment

Original post: 14 November 2009.
Last updated: 28 November 2009

This experiment takes on new life with the advent of the current movie Men Who Stare At Goats!

Click here for the First RPK Experiment. This experiment was originally designed to address paragraph A on page 5 of the ERI Concept Paper.

On Monday, November 16, the video motion detection and recording (VMDR) system is finally up and running and close to on-line live viewing. For those interested I will provide an access code and password. Final positioning, adjustments and camera focusing will be made in the next few days. Then we will be ready for an individual attempt to affect one of the hanging objects without affecting the other. Depending how that next attempt plays out, we may open the experiment up to other potential operators in various parts of the world.
.
.

Saturday, November 14, 2009

Open Letter to Henry B. Eyring, Jr.

Original post: 14 November 2009
Updated: 26 February 2014


A bean field in Arizona
Dear President Eyring,

Your father was on my doctoral dissertation committee in 1964 when he was dean of the graduate school at the University of Utah. Two statements of his stand out in my mind every time I think of him, which is every time I see or hear your name.

The first is from his oft-stated story about his relationship with Einstein at Princeton and one day introducing Einstein to his home town in Pima, Arizona. This included a tour of its bean fields, which were new to Einstein's experience. "Einstein didn't know beans", your father was fond of recalling in discussing those free-wheeling conversations with his friend and colleague, then the most famous scientist in the world. But when Einstein questioned your father's claim to knowledge of the hereafter with "What about dogs?" your dad had to confess that he was "a little weak on dogs"

The second statement was your father's standard introductory remark to Mormon university students: "No one in this church has to believe anything that isn't true." I wish this latter statement were as true today as it I thought it was then.

Attached is an open letter to new Metropolitan Jonah of the Orthodox Church in America, which I joined only last year. It contains a proposal that I also wish to bring to your attention. Perhaps someone close to your office can figure out how to do this.

Eugene N. Kovalenko, Ph.D.
Los Alamos, NM 87544
Tel: (505) 661-9713
Email: eugene.n@kovalenkos.com

Wednesday, November 11, 2009

Open Letter to OCA Metropolitan Jonah

Original post: November 11, 2009
Updated: 26 Feb 2014

The prophet Jonah warning Nineveh


Dear Metropolitan Jonah,

We were introduced by Fr. John Hennies of St. Dimitri Mission in Los Alamos, New Mexico, during the July 2009 DOS assembly in Atlanta. I was wearing a Ukrainian shirt given to me by relatives in the old country. Fr. John urged me to write directly to you regarding your response to a question during your keynote address on Spiritual Maturity.

I wrote such a letter in late August in care of DOS Chancellor Fr. Joseph at his suggestion. Since I have not received a response from him or you, I'm publishing this open letter in the hope that someone you trust may eventually read and bring it to your attention.

In the Q&A session of your keynote address on Spiritual Maturity someone asked about dreams. I heard you reply “He who pays attention to his dreams is a fool” as attributed to St. John the Ladder and that the Holy Fathers traditionally had a negative view of the subject. But I was not sure what your own view was.

If John the Ladder's comment is true, then he, who is now writing to you, is most certainly a fool! However, he hopes he is God’s fool and must therefore respectfully, but profoundly disagree! I hope to offer you an approach that allows one to value and utilize any dream--even those with demons, disturbing content or nightmares, which so troubled the ancient fathers. This approach, which I call Creative Deep Listening is simple, direct and experiential. It can be useful in better helping one understand, accept, love and transform by answering twelve carefully developed questions--even on the telephone--without the dreamer even required to disclose the dream's content. (Safety feature.) It can thus also be used as an instrument for pastoral care.

I want the chance to win your confidence.

Fr. John Hennies, who knows me well and has personally experienced the process, has suggested that I inform you of my experience with dream work over the past 35+ years. The process originated from having been invited by UCLA’s Extension director to teach an experimental course in 1976 entitled Creative Dreaming and Spiritual Awakening at the Extension Division's Center for Religious Experience, East and West. A decade later, as engineering manager for an aerospace company, I was given opportunity by its general manager to convert the process into a simpler, more practical form for use in industry that successfully resolved a serious problem with company morale.

Brother Jonah, in your recent speeches you have warned communicants about allowing the ego to take control of one’s decisions. Would you be surprised by my assertion that dreams bypass the ego? Indeed, the false-self ego is generally threatened by the truth of the dream and generally attempts to block it. Can you consider that dreams come from our deeper, spiritual natures and tell us our personal truth in metaphorical language unique to the dreamer at the moment he needs to know? For this reason I consider dreams a daily, unheralded miracle.

If an initial short presentation awakens your or your representative's interest, I would be available to give workshops to you and your counselors that you might find useful as a creative tool in addressing morale, personnel and council building issues and am willing to travel to any place at any time at your convenience.

Before closing, you should know that I am a recent convert to the OCA. Until fall of last year, I had no intention of ever joining another institutionalized religion, having been twice excommunicated from the Mormon Church into which I was born and raised. But last September (2008) I felt prompted to return to the tradition of my Ukraine-born, Russian Orthodox-baptized father to understand, integrate and transcend the truths therein.

If you need to know more of my background, please feel free to inspect this blog www.orthodoxodyssey.blogspot.com, which is dedicated to my grandchildren and great grandchildren. It was inspired by Fr. John Hennies and written with him and you in mind--as well as St. Herman of Alaska (my patron saint), Fr. Arseny (priest and prisoner, whose life and example taught me the Orthodox way of confession) and the martyred priest St. Pavel Florensky (mentioned by Solzhenitsyn as “the most remarkable man of all time in the Archipelago”). It was becoming aware of the first chapter of his 1922 book Iconostasis titled The Structure of Dreams that encouraged me to bring my dreamwork process to your attention.

That your leadership, vision, courage and creativity continue to inspire the OCA and all other Orthodox communities and institutions world-wide is my continuing prayer.

In the love of Christ,

Arseny Pavel (Eugene) Kovalenko, Ph.D.
St. Dimitri of Rostov Mission
Orthodox Church in America
Los Alamos, NM 87544
(505) 661-9713 (h)
enk33@q.com
www.orthodoxodyssey.blogspot.com